I HATE MY HAIR

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on overdrive...

damn. i can't believe i slept only for 2hours and i'm still alive now. didn't dare take pills last night cos i was scared i'd miss today's lesson again, then ended up only sleeping at 630 thereabouts. woke at 8. 8.05. 8.10. 5 min intervals cos of the snoozing. lol. love and hate it. i dunno why i bother setting the alarm early then snooze for half an hour. coulda just slept thru til 830 lo. was still on time! but then my dear boss was the one who couldn't wake up to send me to work. then the cabbies all red colour light. lucky i managed to get there before cut off!

the morning was draggy. interview with corporate dunno who. she so scary. woman of few words. then the trainer so poorthing. when i said i gotta go out for interview he just shrugged his shoulders. :S

luckily the pm was more fun. made 3 new friends today! yay! had lunch with daniel and realised that the passion he has will probably make him successful. i think i should develop more passion too. he and me sama sama. banking background. but his was in sydney. how cool lor. and i know he is the ethical kind from the way he spoke about churning his clients last time. shared experience bout the previous co too. he said he totally understood. nice.

my new friends are damn funny. tho they call me yao guai, i like it! cos they all also yao guai. hahahahaha! one shopclubaholic. one young mother of a 17y/o girl. one fake apnn. and me. all yao guais. lol.

it makes me wanna go to work more with people around to laugh with. =) hopefully....

my redbull's wearing off. my head feels heavy but i'm gonna go for the meeting tomorrow morning. i need to clear up some issues on the other side before i can balance both. else i'll prob just skew to one side and that was not my initial plan. my plan was to make full use of the time i have when babe's not around to make as much money as i can. if i can balance both well, i think things will be good for us soon.

david said nothing is impossible. to me, he said that. and i wanna believe he meant it in my context. i wanna believeeeeee. don't stop me.

i hope babe can relax more when things happen. it sucks seeing her so tired everyday. it sucks seeing her stressed out. and it sucks when she comes home at 10pm. from work.

maybe, just maybe she can convert soon. i hope we can make it happen. either that or i hope she gets what she wants from this current position and move on quick. whatever it is, i just hope for her to be happy, even at work. she tries not to talk bout office related shit when at home, maybe cos she thinks it's boring for me and doesn't want me to stress out with her. i don't know shit bout her work, and i dunno many of the acronyms she uses. but i just pretend to. lololol. hopefully she feels better talking a wee bit bout it to me la.

oya. talking bout that. i must say that i'm thankful for the way my life has gone eventho it used to suck so bad i wanted to die many times.

jie was saying i'm blessed. and yes. i am. somehow things come my way when i need them eventho i don't search hard for them. somehow i enjoy life quite abit. and even when i don't work hard i still get to enjoy life.

=)

made in heaven.

that's me.

to my jie jie

i so love bitching with you!!!

from sweden to people on the train! aaahahahaha

it was so funny when the guy's head touched your shoulder. almost. told you to cough you dunwan. heng you laugh also got use! and oso heng i made you laugh! waaaahahahaha

i tell you more rubbish things when we go for the buffet! eh maybe we go ourselves then can talk more. with the rascals, you hardly have time for me one.

last time i was your rascal. your baobei. your precious. now i gotta fight with the 2 of them. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. and remember... don't tell them what i told you ah. else later they try to kill me!

my new

my new colleagues are so much fun.

they kept me alive ytd for the whole after from like 1+ to 5+!!! hehe. all that bitchin bout life, all that teaching..

damn

tired...

i'm so damn tired from the past week.

was just thinking the other night. is money that important for one to work his ass off? what happens if one works too hard then suddenly dies from fatigue? all gone to waste?

what if he's working that hard to start a family, but then before it can get started, dies? we aren't getting any younger man, and people in our age group have dropped dead around us. scary ain't it? RIP.

mommy was also just saying that her boss' friend's DIL is such a materialistic bitch. how can ask for a 3 bedroom pte house in exchange for one grandchild? omfg. if that's my dil i sure ask my son to divorce her. eh no. i sure disown my son cos if not next time i die liao, he sure will give her everything sia! and she's apparently singaporean hor. now i know can bargain one. those with many kids should be bloody rich now. all those properties..!

many thoughts have passed over the weekend. people were playing $500 per hand at $1 jackpot machines and there i was feeling apprehensive bout a $5 per hand hit at a 20cent machine. people played thousands per hand at baccarat, pontoon everything. and some of us are screaming bout the $2000 annual levy. i looked at their chips and i can't even tell what colour's what denomination anymore. way out of my league. imagine if i sat at that table with them. they'd probly spit at me. or rather, i'd have been chased away in less than 10 hands by the losses. interesting how the rich live, and how the other end does. i remember watching the channel u show where the old aunty cooked porridge from dried up left over rice from weeks before. one hand played and lost by those rich uncles could have lasted that aunty at least a few months. yes. few MONTHS, IN SINGAPORE mind you.

o well. aunty may be happier than the uncles tho. simplicity is a blessing at times.

STILL, i can't wait for my paycheque to come. and i sure hope it gets fatter by the month. so much for wanting a simple life. haa.

heart over head

like duh lor. her head is empty mah.

where got people know her bf secretly wishes for her to be chio-er still can tahan?

love is blind. however fugly she is, he should accept mah.

really pei fu her. no wonder S says she must super love him alot and treats him damn good if not she'd be long gone cos of her looks.

hmmm...

i never knew though. that it's THAT impt to him. i wonder if i look like that would he have hung on for so long since my temper's like shit. hahahahahah!

i think naz is tired. poor fella kena stuck in between us. i mean like too bad if he blames you la. your mouth, you can say wad you want wad. plus it's all factual. and i didn't use names. senso people then will know it's them. i tell you stuff that i'm pretty sure you have told people too. i dun blame you do i? i dunno why you're so scared of him tho. you don't want trouble, then maybe you should stop listening and talking to both of us. or maybe if you really need him in your life, then just stop talking to me altogether. at least then you'll have more peace.

i tried to help but i guess i made things worse. i thought by telling someone, she can kinda console her. but noooo...i'm supposed to mind my own biz now. and i need a heart transplant sponsored by my rich gf.

eh wait.

1) my gf's not rich.

2) i'm not the one who thinks you need surgery ley... why do i need a new heart? that bf of yours is d one who needs it.

3) i'd have not bothered bout any of this if i didn't know i was being stalked in the first place.

4) your bf started accusing me of shit i didn't do first. i was just tryna say my piece.

5) you started talkin bout me to my ex mgr first what. why now i cannot talk ley???

isit cos you're fugly then can bitch and pretend to be nice?

then i guess i rather not. cos i may not be chio, but at least i dun get asked by my partner to get surgery done. =P

fuck off la. seriously.

to those who hate and are still stalking me

what for fuck's sake are you here?

if you do not want to know bout me and what's happening in my life, then dun bother reading la!

if you can delete me off fb and msn cos of your gf, you should never be here.

if you do not want people to know bout you, then don't tell anyone what you feel, or anything at all. cos walls have ears remember? and people talk. no matter how much you want them to stop.

how can you expect people not to talk when you yourself talk so much???

if what i blog about makes you upset, then don't, please don't ever come here. it's my blog, and i will say whatever i feel. what you don't know won't hurt you.

if you're insecure and still needta keep tabs on me, i want you to know that i'm not interested in getting back with him. never ever. period. one man's meat another man's poison.

to you he's treasure. to me he's trouble.

ok? enough already????